Question Meme Round Two
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Question Meme Round Two!
Feel free to ask me any questions about either Silver or Camellia here~! Let me know if you want me to ask you stuff in return.
Feel free to ask me any questions about either Silver or Camellia here~! Let me know if you want me to ask you stuff in return.
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Date: 2019-05-20 08:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-20 07:09 pm (UTC)Surface level thoughts are basically...Pink seems chill? The tinies seem to like him pretty well! Which is always a good sign. He seems like he could be pretty fun to hang with. And he can say some pretty amusing things and seems fun to tease, but also seems like the same sort of person to DO the teasing. Silver gets the feeling that they could probably get along pretty well if Silver would chill the PR face a bit and actually allow himself to be slightly more open.
There's a slight Kill Bill siren in the sense that he can sorta tell they both have the same inclination to prod people. And there's also the same sort of sense that Pink keeps a pretty neutral, friendly polite face like he himself does. In general he can't really tell where he stands with Pink and that more than anything tends to make him hesitant. Definitely likes knowing where he stands.
And somehow or another he's wound up seeing more of him these days. So he's kind of dancing around and trying to decide whether or not to ease up on the PR face a bit more. Being more relaxed with his face is less about trust and more...Pink doesn't seem to respond well to it anyways, seems to see it for what it is anyways, so what's the point?
That said, part of Silver's hesitance is also the petty part of his mind likes to trudge up the whole Mori ordeal. Silver is perfectly aware they were a very new team when all this happened, but Silver never forgets. He can forgive it because logically he can see their side of things, but that doesn't mean he'll forget it. The whole thing caused him an insane amount of worry and stress and anxiety.
He tries to keep that separate from his thoughts on the Peps as individuals versus his thoughts on Peps as a whole though. He's pretty certain the same conclusion may not have been reached if it wasn't a whole team discussion of people melding and blending ideas. And since he can't know what their individual action would have been, he chalks the decision up to Pep as an entity and not individuals.
But yeah! Pink seems to fall into that group of people who seem to be a decent enough without being holier than though. Silver gets along best with people who are very ~chill~. He doesn't like people who are too (in his mind) overly friendly. If someone is TOO nice, it makes him uncomfortable. That's why B and C work well, they're pretty good people, but they do have their flaws and their petty moments and they seem way more down to earth and realistic than the overly friendly outgoing people. He doesn't do well with people like Hiryuu or Levi either who like to talk a big game, voice their opinions loudly, but can't back anything they say up. He doesn't like people who think they have any say over anyone else etc etc. He prefers by far by people who say what they mean and actually follow through on their words. Even though morally WC is very wiggles hand, Silver appreciates them because they don't think they have any control over anyone else and only speak for themselves and their own actions.
This wound up rambling, but Pink seems CHILL and chill is a GOOD THING. Doesn't seem overly nice, but also doesn't seem like a huge asshole; just the right amount of amusing and well intentioned asshole. Can interact with Pink separate from the Mori incident. Wouldn't mind interacting with him more or getting to know him better, but it's a weird dance because he feels Pink has some kind of PR face himself and Silver is actually very awkward at intiating social stuff.
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Date: 2019-05-20 07:17 pm (UTC)Camellia went home and thought on why??? Pink??? seemed so nervous??? When it was pretty clear from the memory that they get on well and are on good terms. She knows a memory is just a snap shot and not the whole picture, but...
Since he chose to show that memory, surely it's either 1) the only one he has of her or 2) the most indicative of their relationship out of all the memories he's gotten back! Or, at the very least, what he wanted her to see.
However, after going home, watering plants and thinking on it she realized maybe it's just seeing her here? As great as the initial moment of seeing someone you know must be, it also must be really hard to see them HERE!
And that mostly got confirmed when meeting Rye and one of his first responses was "what are you doing HERE".
She's going to do her best to make sure not to worry both of them, she's decided. Which is....hard. Because LiliS was very upfront about 'WE DIE BASICALLY EVERY GAME DEATH IS AN OPTION'.
She doesn't want them both to distance themselves from her pre-emptively because of LiliS eating it all the time. It seems really lonely and sad if that were to happen.... So she's going to make sure to do her best in games and try to handle whatever comes her way so that it doesn't cause them more stress then they are already under.
That said, she is also glad to see people from home, but also worried! She wants to get memories soon so she can share one with him in return! He seems very nice and she wants to do her best not to worry him!
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Date: 2019-05-20 07:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-20 11:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-20 08:10 pm (UTC)He really meant it too re; talking to B about being protective of Gold and how, if he thought B was bad, he would’ve nipped Gold and B’s relationship in the bud. Silver is very possessive of Gold and it just goes to show how much he likes and trusts B that he is okay with him dating Gold.
He respects B a lot. B has been through a lot of shit but still tries so hard. He may mope or complain when something bad happens, but he always gets back up and keeps going despite it. He helps everyone, even those that don’t deserve it, and he does it all at personal cost.
Silver just wishes B would give himself as much leeway as he gives everyone else. When B talks shit about himself, he’s talking shit about someone important to Silver. He doesn’t know if he can or even should try to get B to understand that really. He isn’t bad or weak or any of that. He knows a lot of this is just self esteem issues B has and that he can probably only support B but can’t fix it himself, that’s something b will have to do. He worries too if he tries to reinforce that B is good....that B will clam up and just not voice those thoughts.
So all he can do is gentle support like helping B with roller skating or trying to make him laugh with silly drunk texts etc etc. It doesn’t feel like enough....but he’s pretty certain pushing more than that will just make B close up.
More than ever he wants B (and of course C) to come home with them. Especially after hearing he was shot in the head. He can’t force B to say yes, but....he does want to at least keep reminding him he is wanted and has a place to go. Will also probably start working on a course outline for getting B caught up in his studies just in case.
B and C have always been that magical sweet spot of good but not TOO good. They have a good edge of realism and sarcasm and self deprecation while still managing to be sincere, consistent and well intentioned. He can’t protect them but he wants to support both of them and at least help them relax and have fun sometimes. The more he gets to know them the more he cares about them.
Also a note he wants his John class buddy back so he can pass notes back and forth like a loser.
Reverse! Also talk to me about Bs biggest worry as of right now and Bs biggest relief as of right now.
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Date: 2019-05-20 09:35 pm (UTC)Because B is extremely aware that Silver, much like he and Gold, probably feels so dang useless. And being able to chat it out is a small thing but it's still. more than nothing. Even if it's small it's something they can do for each other and he wants to give Silver the chance to feel like he can do something. Oof. life is so bad and agency is so hard. ITS THE LITTLE THINGS.
And B is worried about both the twins still. Twins made up but Silver is still under a lot of stress with how much he tries to make WC look good + single dad life + Aries and Haruto are gone. It's a lot for one good boy.
And Silver does a lot for B. It's a small thing maybe but the constant reaching out to offer this better life is. So much. It's painful in a way because B can't believe he can ever have it. But it's also a lifeline he clings onto. It's a hope and a dream he can daydream about when things are bad and its a wish he can hold onto for a better life where he's not scared all the time. Sometimes it's a lifeline.
So just. Silver gives B SO much. He's reliable and smart and hard working and he understands that weird Second Place feeling of having a "sibling" who outshines you in many ways while you're laboring to keep up. He's considerate and gives B all these symbolic little things to hold onto and precious small memories that are beyond important. Silver cares too much and it's awful.
B's biggest worries are hn. Of course the ever present violence outside games/extra violence in games that don't warrant it weighs on him a lot. Those things are threats to his sense of well being. He's also worried about Alcheme wanting to play harder. He'll absolutely roll and let it happen if they want to do it. But the worry is very much that he'll have to end up organizing things anyway even as they play in a way he can't stand. He asked N and C for help though next bad game in getting maybe someone else to help run things though so WHEW.
Biggest relief is honestly the twins making up. Them fighting/being weird was extremely uncomfortable and even though they did a good job keeping the tinies out of it there was still a weird sense of...loneliness? From not being the foursome they usually were. It felt weird and disjointed and B hated it. It's much better now that they can all be together again.
Is Silver worried about how the balloon game shook out in terms of how the game went within WC + the winners/losers.
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Date: 2019-05-20 11:57 pm (UTC)A part of him hoped they would live as proof that playing soft in all these games could help change peoples view on their team. However, they didn't live. So, he doesn't fault Whisky and Plover for wanting to play harder. Whisky and Plover want to protect Wild City and playing soft hasn't worked. They've been very good about letting WC play soft for this long. Contrary to what some people may think, he's not running or even trying to run the 'Silver show'. The softs had their turn, so it's time for the hard players to get their way.
He's sure playing hard may help in the short run on /some/ games, but he doesn't think Whisky or Plover understand the long term circumstances and headaches; SEE EX: Baritones in the balloon game... You can play as hard as you want and that'll help you in some games, but fuck you over in others. Plus he's aware swinging from hard to soft to hard just reinforces their team being seen as "unpredictable" which "unpredictable" and "unknown" are the main reasons he thinks people are nervous about them???
He's sure North will probably take issue with playing hard, but....he has been very clear about 'look, you have friends from home on almost every team, it is not possible to protect all of them' and trying to get everyone to pick their ONE personal priority to protect.
He's tired. He really deeply cares about Wild City and doesn't want to see them hurt or feel like they have no voice. He's not going to weigh in anymore on games outside of wanting to protect Gold (I say that now but when has Silver ever been able to not care and try). He's already talked it out with and ageed to get over the Coyote thing from the balloon game. So he's really trying to not let his mind bring up Coyote jumping into his conversation with North because he knows she didn't mean ill by it, but it just kind of....hurt him at a fundamental core? To basically (even though it was unintentional) have it implied he only cares about looking after his own interests. When he. Does his best to try and hear and balance everyone's feelings? And then when he tried to talk it out...got basically told he was trying to paint himself as the victim... Again, he knows Coyote is just rough around the edges and didn't have ill intentions and was just blowing off steam so he's let it go and doesn't hold it against her. Just wow, it kinda hurt even if it was just yelling but then he goes and gets mad at himself for being sensitive about it /laughs in volleyball.
It just kind of makes him question how he comes across to the newbies and what they think of him. One of the things that bugs Silver most in any relationship is not knowing where he stands. He feels awkward because he definitely feels the newbies are closer with each other than him. Which he knows isn't true and probably is just stemming from his own insecurities about not having friends back home. Silver has great self esteem....when it comes to volleyball and his looks and being able to be generically likable. When it comes to relationships deeper than surface level though...it's not like he has a lot of experience with that. And being a perfectionist, it makes him frustrated and beat himself up a little. He just winds up feeling like he's too big for his skin.
Add to that he's still not used to having a team this big... Having Haruto and Aries gone is very hard on him because they've been with him since day one. He can't be as clingy with Whisky as he could with them, so its just very...he's lacking an important touchstone and support and he miiiight be spiraling a bit.
The petty parts of his heart are 1) disappointed in the community for basically proving there is no improving their reputation 2) hurt by haruto and aries for being gone this long (yes he knows it wasnt by choice, but we're talking small petty thoughts not logic silver) 3) wishes his team tried harder/was better at social games rather than just murder and death games (again he knows just like death games are hard for him, social games are hard for them and that the harder games are actually the things they know) 4) lowkey does feel he should get to protect gold every game because it IS his actual real life family and not some friend he's maybe had for a year or a boyfriend he's had for a couple months (knows its important to be considerate of the rest of the teams feeling and the fact that these are their important people regardless of length of relationship) 5) feels like the newbies lowkey feel he's trying to boss them around or bully his way or hide things from them or whatever...basically he's not sure how much they trust him. Again, these are just petty!Silver or insecure!Silver thoughts, not normal, logic Silver. Just...invasive thoughts that float across his mind sometimes.
What are the things B likes least and most about each of his friends?
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Date: 2019-05-21 12:23 am (UTC)C Bad: but also C setting himself up to be The Bad Guy can be upsetting and worrying. B is genuinely afraid C will get hurt one day. And he dislikes even small things like people coming to his defense vs Plover but not C. Not believing him when he points out the ways C is better. All because C has to go hard sometimes and make himself a target for others. It's stressful!! And upsetting!!
Also bad is how hard it can be to pry stuff out of C. It can be effort when he's already tired. And C won't always let him help. LET! B! HELP!
Gold Good: Soothing ♥ Gold is a soothing an calming presence and that's always been the best part about Gold. Gold brings down B's anxiety so well just by physically being there. Being held? Amazing. Gold's lowkey reactions? Thank you for not freaking out. He's very good at navigating the tinies' comfort levels and not overreacting. His steadiness when things are crazy is so helpful for B.
Gold Bad: but the boy is so sad. strongsad. And because he's so sad sometimes it's hard for B to want to be open about things because. He's just so dang sad! And there's nothing B can do to help with it which is frustrating. He just can't do the things Gold needs to feel better. Adding to that seems so bad?? And there's going to always be a part of B that misses the Old Gold after double amnesia reminded him of the way Gold use to be. It's no one's fault. But he misses how things use to be.
Silver Good: His patience. He's very patient and kind with B, never losing his cool no matter how much help B needs sometimes with either fussing or learning. B knows it's probably really frustrating but Silver never fails to be gentle and kind with him when B is earnestly trying his best to learn.
Silver Bad: B still kinda salty that the Wild City stuff....Is. Like neither of them can help it but B can't help but be salty that he can't go visit his own friend Because Reasons and he can't be petty about WC to Silver because Well Obviously. It's frustrating that he feels this One Thing is off the table because his opinions aren't kind. It's a dumb thing to be salt about and B is genuinely trying to get over it. But it's hard!!! it's hard.
Duality Good: A good earnest simple young man. It's nice that he's so easy to navigate because he's so. Honest.
Duality Bad: IM TRYING TO MAKE YOU MAD DUALITY WHY WONT YOU RISE TO THE BAIT DUALITY AUUUGGHH
How does Silver think games go for Avante? How does he imagine Gold is treated when he can't see.
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Date: 2019-05-21 12:48 am (UTC)For all WC's faults....they do at least sincerely care about each other. And try to protect each other physically and emotionally. He is aware sometimes those efforts are clumsy or make things worse, but at least the intentions are good. He knows (some of) WC treats the rest of imeeji worlds diffrently than they treat him/the rest of the team.
HOWEVER. If someone were to ask Silver....diplomatic "theyre probably trying their best" aside? He thinks Avante is probably a shit show during games. Cardigan leads and argues despite probably not even actually wanting to be leader. Nem is probably resentful and angry, either cold or combative. Gold is so trampled he just agrees without a blink to whatever will get his team to stop fighting/will cause the least amount of problems. Mike appearing as mr. well intentioned confused new guy. Etc etc etc. The two newbies seem fighty so that's probably just going to make things WORSE. The team has NO true mediator with actual diplomatic skills.
He knows Gold owns some of the blame in his own misery for not fighting for what he wants and letting his heart be trampled. He also knows though that as a natural....Gold doesn't have the practice to get over hurdles. He doesn't know how to change tactics and keep pushing through things that seem impossible. Silver is grateful sometimes that he wasn't born a natural because it taught him to how to claw his way through fro what he wants. He wanted to shape Wild City and he made the change he wanted to see despite how impossible it seemed. Gold can't do that. Gold is a natural and if it doesn't happen for him, then clearly its impossible. It is or isn't.
That doesn't change the fact that it kills him to think of Gold sitting there agreeing to let everything he cares about be trampled for the sake of trying to keep peace with people he thinks of as coworkers only to have even that denied. He's so angry he could scream just thinking about no one seeing Gold's passive answers for what they are. Silver feels all the anger and resentment Gold won't let himself feel and it is MADDENING. His heart aches thinking of Gold just quietly agreeing to have his spirit broken anymore and it kind of kills him but he knows he can't approach the topic of avante without making Gold defensive. He knows Gold is sensitve to any mentions of WC so he tries not to mention his team either. It's just...hard....being forced to put the safety of your most important person in the hands of other people who don't care even half as much as you do about him.
Talk to me about B and body language and any weird habits or quirks!
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Date: 2019-05-21 01:20 am (UTC)But the more relaxed he is, the more he winds down from all that movement. In private B lacks a lot of manic energy he has in public where he's being all bubbles. it's not that the fidgety version of B is false, it's just he feels differently in large groups than his smaller, more personal ones. In the privacy of his closest people he's instead much more touchy than he is with others. He spends a lot of time On Gold and C. And while he usually avoids crawling all over Silver the way he does Gold and C, he does lean on him and hold onto his arm on occasion.
In a way the broad gestures etc in public is a barrier and in private he lets that down and instead anchors himself to people.
B fairly often is biting back impulses to ground himself in less pleasant ways. He's considered several times things like. Digging his fingernails into himself to anchor himself in more stressed moments but has managed to not go down that path yet. But he probably be seen occasionally reaching to do so before stopping himself.
what does Silver think it's like in Alcheme during a bad game? since i got his avante take
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Date: 2019-05-21 01:43 am (UTC)Does B ever think what things would be like if he has chosen Mori over Gold? Would B be different if he was dating Mori instead of Gold? Looks only, ignoring personality, what is B's type like? Who would be the most attractive person according to B? Also does B have any kinks other than kabedon?
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Date: 2019-05-21 02:10 am (UTC)If he were dating Mori he would be less touchy with both Gold and Silver. And probably miss out on some sleepovers. He would probably still be close friends with the twins though. And probably tbh overly willing to share Mori with C. But also suffering a little for that in that he'd think of C as the Better Match as the more interesting tiny.
LOOKS ONLY geez.
For girls, B likes boyish girls. Not into huge chests, he likes androgynous girls more than curvy girls. With guys it isn't like overly muscley guys but they do need to be fit. He probably finds Enstars Leo pretty hot with the cute red hair? But really it could change according to mood.
As for kinks oof. Kabedon and general like. Roughness? Being held down or tied up is A+++. Roleplay is extremely A+++++. Especially if costumes are involved. He'd probably freak out but also get turned on a lot by being watched if it was the right person watching. Sure ain't admitting that one!
Tell me about some of Silver's nightmares/fears!
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:17 am (UTC)Subconsciously...dream wise....a lot of the reoccuring themes in his nightmares involve not being able to move. Since he feels pretty useless/helpless and also that lingering fear from being strapped to the table and forcibly injected with god knows what... Eye trauma is a new one thanks to the spike game lololo.... Losing everyone, everyone deciding they don't like him, being abandoned....also grrrrreat nightmare material. But yeah, the most common nightmare theme is just straight up not being able to move.
What team would B have been on if not Alcheme? How do you think he would have been different?
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:29 am (UTC)I think he'd be infinitely more stressed and beaten down if he had been on one of the more Emotional teams that get riled up and heated during bad games. He needs to cling onto civility and stability during those times and people getting emotional would be nervewracking for him. He doesn't particularly deal with conflict that well unless he's instigating or able to maneuver some control somehow. He'd probably be in a pretty similar place to Gold or Hurricane where he'd be just. Why bother.
He'd also probably not had been able to level up his friendship with C so. That'd be the Big Difference. The likelyhood of them locking themselves into Bullshit Loops is way higher when they don't share a unit.
Is Silver mentally prepared for C's dangan bullshit backstory.
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:45 am (UTC)How would B like normal high school? Would he join any clubs? Or would he just stick with C and the twins until graduation? Would he be interested in getting to know and befriending the team or even the rival teams?
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:52 am (UTC)He would probably look to the twins for cues on who to befriend/talk to. Wary of stepping on their feet etc since in a weird way he'd be a Guest. But just a guest for like. Forever....
how it gonna feel when/if Silver finds out the circumstances of C's death? cuz boy aint that a convoluted mess involving two other members of imeeji
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:14 am (UTC)Would be feel less like a guest once they got out of highschool at least? And got into a twins and tinies apartment? Also how is B feeling about C convuluted death mess?
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:29 am (UTC)There's no details on C dying yet or confirmation but BOY DOES B SUSPECT IT. AND HE IS UNHAPPY. He knows it's stressing C out and most importantly: C didn't even want to know this. Maki forced this on him by publicly taking memories and dragging him into this. And then X bothered him about stuff DURING A TRAUMA GAME. The entire thing is coming for C without him having any say in it. And once it comes up it's like...okay and? So what? He can't control the past, he can't change the past, knowing about the past....does not actually Help C in any way since C has no intention of returning even if alive.
To B it all seems like C is just a victim of other peoples' bullshit. Maki lacks consideration and that is annoying for B. Like the stuff where she lets C provoke her and get under her skin is hugely annoying for B too and he worries she's going to haul off and do a violence. But even beyond that just. The disregard for how her memories effect C and others annoys B. Especially since they all know that the murder game involves HORRIFIC MURDERS. B has seen one murder via maki and another via C THEY BOTH SUCK. Please have consideration and maybe don't REPLAY YOUR MURDER SHIT where people can see!!111
So B is just. Deeply frustrated because it feels like a lot of people not giving a shit about C and making C more and more moody and unhappy and stressed. When it didn't have to be that way and Who Cares About Memories ANYWAY.
In a heart game, would Silver destroy something in the name of Helping?
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:49 am (UTC)How is B gonna be after Rise graduates?
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Date: 2019-05-21 09:30 pm (UTC)It's still a lot and depressing and B will be in knots because it means he'll have to figure out how to rescue her because of course he'll have to rescue her??? But how can someone as small and weak as him DO that??? It's a lot of pressure and stress. He's going to be not great. And in a way even though she means well it will feel like a betrayal of sorts since this means she can become a host now and. That's hard to face too.
He's going to feel very powerless and very alone and very confused and his ability to trust will probably become a little shaky.
how is SILVER going to feel about Rise choosing to become a host etc and B's ensuing emotional crash.
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Date: 2019-05-21 09:46 pm (UTC)What has been B's favorite piece of fanmail? Least favorite? How does he feel about being watched in general?
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Date: 2019-05-21 10:03 pm (UTC)Least fav are def the rude letters accusing him of things he already thinks about himself and the graphic doujinshi where he or others are harmed. But he hangs onto those usually and looks at them when his mood is low, like picking at a scab. So the ones that dig at him about Mori, the doujin where Gold just murders him. He hates them but. He keeps. Looking.
He haatteeesss being watched and it makes him feel like he should Always Be On. He forces himself to come down off of Stage Self a lot more than he's actually comfortable with doing just cuz he knows if he's On all the time he will lose his fucking mind. It's hard trying to always be cute~ and nice~.
How is Silver feeling about pretty princess crush corner?
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Date: 2019-05-21 11:27 pm (UTC)Silver is....doubtful. Of anyone who claims to have a crush on him. He knows he has a lot of faults and flaws and generally other people don't get to see those. So the second someone says they have a crush on him its just like....oh. You have a crush on the idea of me/my face/my body. And to be fair, C was right, since day one Silver has used being nice to look at and being generically likable to hopefully encourage people into liking him just enought to think twice about bussing Wild City.
Twins are used to being confessed to back home...hell they have a lot of fans (half of which are just there because theyre cute rather than for love of volleyball)...and also being considered interchangeable. So for Silver to be comfortable with a crush, he has to believe that person actually sees him. Twins are weird and possessive and not really good at sharing and don't really understand poly. Silver sees most of the drama circling around a lot of the relationships here and he doesn't really want any of that. So aside from doubting most people to manage to be chill in a relationship, he also doubts most people's ability to manage to be faithful and not smooch around with other people. Even if he was to just do a fwb thing he still...doesn't really want....someone to go around smooching a bunch of other people too? Feels weird and bad. In a fwb thing if someone wanted to smooch someone else, that's cool, just like tell him so they can break things off first and keep things drama free. Not big enough on smooching to want to deal with drama for it. How do other people not manage to do a smooch and stay chill? idk man.
Talk to me about B and food. What foods does he love, what does he hate, can he cook, does he graze or do full meals, etc.
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Date: 2019-05-21 11:50 pm (UTC)Well. B usually enjoys food of many varieties. He tends towards sweets less out of an actual appreciation for them and more just to appear more cutesy~. Not that he dislikes sweets, but its very a LOOK HOW CUTE I AM thing to appear to prefer them. He enjoys homey staples and such the most probably.
That said he's very much as of late lost his appetite and appreciation of food. While before he'd go to the cafe just because He Wants To now he mostly just makes himself eat his rations. He'll nibble on whatever he's given by friends but he now rarely finishes what he's eating. B knows it's not. Great. But the enjoyment has been sucked out. He's slowly starting to get his appetite back but it's a process.
B can cook!
B hates cooking. He much rather others cook for him and take it as a symbol of their doting on him. He feels bad that he never returns the favor but he just kind of dislikes cooking. It's not very fun, a lot of effort, and he's not especially good at it. Not that he's bad either. Just. He don't. Wanna. He already does a lot! So someone else! Do this!!!
B is very much a grazer who tends towards maybe one actual meal a day aside from recently where he is very dutifully making himself eat his rations in one sitting every day so he won't forget.
How much does Silver see himself and Gold in the tinies? You've mentioned before he notices similarities between the ways they act and the twins sometimes.
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Date: 2019-05-23 06:48 am (UTC)The tinies work with the twins because they're also 'good' without being overly 'nice'. The tinies aren't saints and neither are the twins; they have petty thoughts and get tired of peoples bullshit and just want everyone to stop their nonsense for like two seconds. The tinies are realists, like the twins, and despite being from murder school and magical boy land, are also down to earth.
Both the twins and the tinies are hyper aware of appearances and how people view things and how that can be manipulated etc etc.
Silver and B definitely have the most similarities in terms of coping and needing to be busy and experiencing a lot of 'second best' feelings. C keeps busy too, of course, and Gold is kind of the odd one out in that, but a lot of that probably relates to his unit issues and strong sad. wheeze.
As far as twins and tinies go, Gold and B definitely are prone towards depression versus Silver and C being prone to manic energy etcetc. Twins and tinies are all generally smarter than they let on and come to a lot of the smae conclusions.
Main thing being the energy/vibe though; pr faces aside. They're not the extreme of 'nice' to the point of being genuinely bubbly and outgoing and sunshine/rainbows...and they're not so 'good' to the point of self righterous and overbearing. They're all tired and realistic and can forgive but never forget, but they're all still good boys.
Would B ever start working for one of the producers? If so, what would he take? Would he ever take up host life? Also separate, but is he going to take part in the anon post when it goes up? Would B have fun playing truth or dare with the twins and C? What dares or truths would he ask of them?
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Date: 2019-05-28 03:15 am (UTC)Anon post hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm not likely unless he sees something interesting or if he wants to be obnoxious. B doesn't really see the point in laying his real~ emotions~ bare in public. Maybe he'd shit stir a little? Really depends on how others are using it. But B isn't super interested in publicly talking shit about people under the cover of anon. Unless it's like. So funny.
TRUTH OR DARE hn. I think if its Just With Them he could enjoy it. If it's them he doesn't mind near so much letting himself be seen in an honest way. And in return he could get their truths as well? And he trusts their dares wouldn't be unbearable even if they could be aggravating.
HOW MUCH BETTER IS SILVER NOW THAT HARUTO AND ARIES HAVE RETURNED
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Date: 2019-05-20 01:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-20 07:51 pm (UTC)When Talon first got here, he was dead set on fully!!! Protecting!!! Him!!! But then when he tried to stop Talon from drinking he got shot down hard by Aries which stung a lot and he couldn’t really argue Aries logic of ‘if he’s old enough to die he’s old enough to drink’. Same thing with John letting him know that trying too hard to shelter Talon would probably just cause Talon to rebel and even resent him.
So right out the gate he got stuck in a limbo of ‘I can’t protect him but I can support him’ and just...trying to balance how he handles him. Silver for a long time was the only teen on WC so he knows first hand the feelings of wanting to not hold everyone back, wanting to be seen as a teammate not the babysat, wanting to be able to support everyone and be seen as an equal member. So he does want to make sure Talon feels like a valid member of the team who is respected and appreciated...he just worries maybe??? That’s not??? The right call??? Just doing his best though...
He thinks Talon is very smart, very sincere, very hard working and very GOOD. He worries that Talon is a huge sponge that just absorbs EVERYTHING but lets go of nothing. He wants to help Talon wring some of that out before he weighs himself down beyond what he can carry. He also gets the feeling that Talon worries about worrying him.
He tries to do as many little things as he can for Talon from meditation together to letting him stay in his room if he wants etc etc.
Talon is very strong in Silver’s opinion and he thinks the world of him and he wants Talon to understand that he won’t think less of him if he’s scared or tired or overwhelmed because admitting those kinds of things is brave and adult in their own ways!
Reverse! Also talk to me about Talon and body language.
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:49 am (UTC)Talon doesn't do a whole lot of gesturing with people he's not comfortable with yet. Like, in his early days with WC he would've seemed kind of unnaturally still in addition to the whole constant wariness (keeping his back to a wall, constantly watching exits). He's a kid who doesn't like to give anything away, and that extends into his gestures and posture.
This has definitely toned down a lot in the month he's been in Imeeji. Still insists on keeping his back to a wall when he's outside of WC, but he'll allow little gestures to slip through. Small stuff like little hand motions to emphasize something he's saying, or allowing himself to slouch or roll his eyes if he's unimpressed with someone. His confidence has gone up a lot too, so he's much more aggressive when he's angry with someone—stepping into their personal space, tilting his head back with defiance or challenge, aggressive pointing, etc.
Generally his body language is very controlled even with what he allows to slip through. The more telling bits of body language he has are things like fists clenched at his side, grit teeth, any time he gets fidgety (which he will constantly make himself stop before starting up again). Those are more things he does when he's trying to suppress or hide how angry or upset he is, and it's usually paired with his verbal language becoming way more formal. Either he's struggling to process emotions that he'd rather not deal with, or he's just struggling to not express them at all.
The only time he really stops making such an effort to control it is when he's with a member of Wild City or in their dorms. It's the only time he'll slouch just to relax, and he's pretty comfortable with all the physical affection they like to shower him with. He's slowly warming up to initiating that on his own—particularly after Silver outright asked for a hug when he came back from hiatus. That helped break down one of the lingering barriers he had there.
But yeah, in general he's a lot freer with things like talking with his hands, making grand and dramatic gestures (like idk, leaping to higher ground to make a dumb point to Coyote or something), and makes more effort not to hide when he's hurt or upset around them. So he'll do things like hunch his shoulders or allow himself nervous gestures like biting his lip or fidgeting with a pen or pencil, rubbing old scars or injuries, etc. Basically is just a lot more comfortable letting them see him doing things that he feels are more childish, or expose some sort of weakness he has. (Thinks he has, anyway)
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Date: 2019-05-21 05:11 am (UTC)I don't want to say Talon trusts Silver more than anyone here, but he is absolutely in the top 3. (The other two are Whisky and Aries, so. About as expected for a WC kiddo.) He's not good at saying it, but he appreciates so much how much Silver's done to support him and help him find his footing here. He doesn't know who he'd be if he didn't have Silver around to help him understand how to relate to people on individual levels, or how to try to see things from someone else's perspective. And he knows he's still got a long way to go on learning that, but he's a lot further along than he would've been by himself.
And it's really the fact that Silver's done that for him that makes Talon trust him so completely. There are so many ways that he could've let Talon down, either just by not having the time for him, or not wanting to have the time for him, but he really never has. The worst thing he's done to Talon is like C, and even Talon isn't actually going to count that against him. He just knows that no matter what happens, Silver's going to have his back when he needs it, and will be there to listen to him and help sort through whatever frustration he's dealing with too.
And it's true that Talon absolutely does try to take on too much, and he knows it makes Silver worry. There is a part of him that feels guilty about it and thinks he should take a step back, but he's got a hero's heart. And they're all trapped in Hell. And he could not live with himself if he felt like he were slacking off on doing what he could to either improve their situation here (so Silver and others can relax a little), or to work towards escape (so Silver and others can relax forever). So he just feels bad about worrying Silver and has to live with that because he does believe what he's doing is the right thing to do.
But going back to Silver as a person—Talon just adores him. He may not be #1 trusted, but he's definitely the #1 person Talon wants to emulate. He thinks it's amazing how easily Silver can deal with people even when he hates it, and tries his best to listen to basically everything he has to say. Even if he disagrees on occasion, he thinks there's value in understanding where Silver's coming from on pretty much any topic. He's just an amazing guy in Talon's opinion, particularly because Silver's just a normal high school student dealing with being an amnesiac in Hell, and is still managing to be one of the most together people in the place. And Talon just admires the hell out of that. One day he'll be that cool too. '-'
What would Silver's reaction to Haruto and Aries' profiles disappearing be?
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Date: 2019-05-23 09:07 pm (UTC)Talon's top three worries right now and something good that happened to him lately, go~! Also, what canonmate would you want to app most and why?
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Date: 2019-05-24 02:30 pm (UTC)2. Still always worried about how people see Wild City, or how they treat Wild City because of what they think of Aries. He has tried a few times to move on from this worry, but it's been getting reinforced recently with things like Nemesis pretty plainly asking if Wild City would break the protection plan if Silver missed the game. Or his current thread with Silk where he's hearing that 99 is the reason they listed WC as a Never Protect, specifically because he thinks Aries is bad for the community. It's not just that it hurts and more that it terrifies him to think people really believe this is what Wild City is like even after everything they've done to try to improve their standing. And 99's stance is most alarming because it isn't even that he thinks Aries was morally wrong, it's because he thinks Aries undermines the community and that makes it worth screwing over Wild City as a whole. What do you do to change the mind of people like that?
3. Kiiind of low key worried about taking his memories still. It rattled him a lot getting the one about his mom shooting his professor in front of him, and even knowing his life must have improved after his dad got custody he's just worried about getting more back like that. Turns out it's upsetting to vividly remember witnessing a murder, even one that happened during a time when you thought murder was just an acceptable thing to do.
4. Good thing that happened is Aradia declaring them friends. They were already friends, but they're both so bad at like...being people... It was very cute, and she's someone that he can personally feel more comfortable around since they're both socially unskilled, so he doesn't feel like there's any set of rules that he doesn't know about that he's trying not to break all the time. It lets him relax a little more when he's talking to her.
And canonmate I want most! This is hard because I do really want all of them cuz they're all so good, but I think it comes down to a tie between Jon Kent (the newest and youngest superboy), and Jason Todd (the rowdiest and arguably worst of his brothers).
Jon, because he's Damian's closest and best friend. They go to school together, do low stress patrols in Metropolis together, go adventuring across the globe and through space whenever their dads look away for longer than 5 minutes... Jon also knows the key points of Damian's past (was an assassin, has very terrible family on his mom's side), and while he clearly isn't comfortable with it he never once blames Damian for any of it. He's accepting and understanding of Damian as a person in a way that is easy for him to recognize, and more importantly he's someone that Damian can genuinely relax around and have absolutely childish fun with, without feeling like he's being foolish. It's the kind of relationship he could use the most in Imeeji, since as much as he definitely does have friends here they're all people older than him. So he's always in this kind of younger brother role, and it leaves him feeling a little distanced from even the people he's closest to. And that in turn leaves him feeling jealous when his closest CR is out having a good time with their own friends--basically Little Brother Feels Left Out syndrome, but with the added bonus of Talon's poor social skills and poor understanding of his own feelings. Kid just feels lonely, and he can't distract himself from that feeling with vigilante work here.
And Jason because I think that, with amnesia on their side, he's the brother that Talon could relate to the best. In canon they have a l o t of issues because Jason is dealing with boatloads of his own trauma by the time Damian shows up, and when Damian shows up he's like two steps away from being a villain anyway thanks to his mom's parenting skills. And it just sure does not go well even a little bit! Jason's the reason he had to have his spine replaced, as just one of many examples of how poorly their early interactions went. :')
BUT. They are both people who struggle with how to deal with criminals and with the Never Kill rule Batman has, and both deal with some extremely intense betrayal by their parents and some very rough childhoods. Both have died at least once, and when their various traumas aren't coming into conflict in the worst ways they do have some great interactions in canon. Jason cares about the kid and seems to like the idea of having a little brother, and Damian has relied on him for things he could never bring to the rest of the Batfam. And I think with amnesia removing some of the history that makes having a relationship so difficult for them, they'd be able to provide support and understanding for each other that neither of them really has access to in canon. Plus they would be excellent and cute rowdy brothers.
If Silver didn't feel obligated to do PR for WC all the time, what kind of stuff would he be doing instead? Or, what were some of your other team picks for him and how do you think he might've developed differently there?
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Date: 2019-05-20 11:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-05-21 12:15 am (UTC)He still feels awful about her first day-ish and not being able to get everyone out of Hell in time to meet back up with her. He knows even if she's forgiven it, that doesn't mean she's forgotten it. And he's sure even if she knows it wasn't intentional and that they did their best, it doesn't change the fact he couldn't fulfill a promise to her on her first day. He worries that may have shaped or affected her longterm trust in him.
He's still trying to figure out her comfort levels and how to best support her. Especially after accidentally hitting her with a volleyball when trying to help distract her.... Everyone on Wild City is very different from him with very different memories and hang ups and he tries his best to be sensitive of those things and support them in ways they're comfortable with.
He appreciates that Plover wants to protect the team and he will let Whisky and Plover have their chance to play hard in the next game because they deserve their chance to feel their voices are heard. He never wants anyone on the team to feel powerless or unsupported.
That said, he does definitely think they need to get the ball rolling on Plover being able to read ASAP. For her comfort level since several times now her not being able to read has caused her stress.
He thinks she's very strong and that she's adapted well/quickly to this place. She has stepped up during the whole double amnesia episode and has folded into the rhythm of the team effortlessly. He appreciates that she is there for Coyote and can understand her and look out for her, since he and Coyote always seem to be on different wavelengths. He hopes she feels cared about and supported, but because her/coyote/north are all so new still....he definitely feels like he still has a long way to go on understanding and getting to know them. He wants to! And he's willing to listen! He just knows...there has been a lot of bad timing and unfortunate situations and such during her time as a newbie. L-low key feels like he failed the newbies and not sure how to make it up to them. But yes. Plover is soo good. Tries so hard. Cares for team. Very sweet. Much adaptable. Very resilient and strong.
Reverse?
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Date: 2019-05-23 08:31 pm (UTC)-She Loves These Fucking Kids
-these are HERS
-she's actually like 500% more extremely possessive of them (most particularly talon, silver, coyote) than she actually shows at any given time but that's mostly because like
-nobody has challenged her on this front
-so she hasn't had to flip the fuck out over them
-she has a very dragon-hoarding-jewels-esque view of Her People but she also doesn't view them as like... being Lower than her, really?? she feels herself a bit higher in the hierarchy than she probably actually is but again it isn't really something that's been challenged or that she's needed to fight so she's PRETTY chill
-at current she is way more prone to getting overanxious about the other wild citys than she is getting aggressive towards them wrt stuff like safety, fighting, etc
-but honestly wc is so... flop... so their personalities mesh pretty well with hers and she stays reasonably calm in their spaces because of them
-wild city is good
-they're good and she loves them.
PLOVER LOVES THIS BOY, GEEZ
Honestly she's pretty easygoing so stuff like them tramping off into Hell or getting hit with a volleyball are mostly dust in the wind for her now. I mean, brought up again she'd definitely be like "OH YEAH I'M TOTALLY STILL MAD" but in practice it's mostly like ehhh. That said, with Silver in particular she's settled into seeing him as the more reasonable big brother for Talon and relatively sturdy and trustworthy. The early stuff legitimately hasn't affected her trust in him or the rest of WC at all, lol.
THAT SAID!! silver her baby, i say in the most joking way possible. she loves this boy he's hers and he makes her happy and she can just flop on him and he's chill with it always. She feels kind of bad for him; he was clearly pretty alarmed by her memories and wants to help with her whole deal but she sees herself as kind of a liability to a Good Person like him wrt what she's gone through/has to do and would much rather he didn't engage with that part of her at all, for his own sake. He seems like a nervous person and while she thinks he's strong in his own right she also sort of feels like he has a weak constitution for confrontation, maybe? She's still not sure what to think about this since she's never seem him in a real fight. But regardless, that feeling translates directly into "I will fuck up anything that so much as looks at this boy wrong"
Now that she's got a feeling for this place, how it works, the kind of people here, and the sort of bullshit her own memories are showing her... she deeply believes almost everyone on WILD CITY absolutely doesn't belong in this place and shouldn't have to deal with any of this. Silver and Talon top that list. So she's sort of doing what she can to protect them-- which mostly comes down to brute strength and intimidation, since that's about all she feels she can give. She's not a people-person, really.
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Date: 2019-05-21 02:31 am (UTC)Also first impressions with Camellia and Prim!!
ask back away too. uwu
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Date: 2019-05-23 05:35 am (UTC)Camellia is soo!!!! Happy!!!! A garden, she gets to help with a garden! So far she's had such good experiences with everyone and is just glad everyone is so kind despite the circumstances. Prim is cute and nice and she welcoming uwu
How is Prim doing these days? Give me a state of the union on Primprom.
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Date: 2019-06-23 07:46 am (UTC)Prim is...okay these days! Since I am saying this is prior to all the recent stuff. Her unit has been getting along, she's making good friends, she's in good company. But she's not so foolish as to give in to the false sense of security that she knows Imeeji gives.
But overall? Good? Great? Happy? Satisfied? Her being Real Done with the bullshit has taken a backburner as of recently.
you know until say 129 and 130, but. you know.
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:13 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:34 am (UTC)Hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngh, I'm not creative. UHHHHHH are you going to play John in betrayal house two? We don't know what LiliS ~thing~ will be yet, but how will he handle it if he does kill someone or otherwise several traumatize them? How will he cope with that? Will it ~unearth~ something in him? What will that change about him? Will that help him decide John vs Will? Who would he have the hardest time dealing with killing post game? Easiest?