Question Meme Round Two
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Question Meme Round Two!
Feel free to ask me any questions about either Silver or Camellia here~! Let me know if you want me to ask you stuff in return.
Feel free to ask me any questions about either Silver or Camellia here~! Let me know if you want me to ask you stuff in return.
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Date: 2019-05-20 11:57 pm (UTC)A part of him hoped they would live as proof that playing soft in all these games could help change peoples view on their team. However, they didn't live. So, he doesn't fault Whisky and Plover for wanting to play harder. Whisky and Plover want to protect Wild City and playing soft hasn't worked. They've been very good about letting WC play soft for this long. Contrary to what some people may think, he's not running or even trying to run the 'Silver show'. The softs had their turn, so it's time for the hard players to get their way.
He's sure playing hard may help in the short run on /some/ games, but he doesn't think Whisky or Plover understand the long term circumstances and headaches; SEE EX: Baritones in the balloon game... You can play as hard as you want and that'll help you in some games, but fuck you over in others. Plus he's aware swinging from hard to soft to hard just reinforces their team being seen as "unpredictable" which "unpredictable" and "unknown" are the main reasons he thinks people are nervous about them???
He's sure North will probably take issue with playing hard, but....he has been very clear about 'look, you have friends from home on almost every team, it is not possible to protect all of them' and trying to get everyone to pick their ONE personal priority to protect.
He's tired. He really deeply cares about Wild City and doesn't want to see them hurt or feel like they have no voice. He's not going to weigh in anymore on games outside of wanting to protect Gold (I say that now but when has Silver ever been able to not care and try). He's already talked it out with and ageed to get over the Coyote thing from the balloon game. So he's really trying to not let his mind bring up Coyote jumping into his conversation with North because he knows she didn't mean ill by it, but it just kind of....hurt him at a fundamental core? To basically (even though it was unintentional) have it implied he only cares about looking after his own interests. When he. Does his best to try and hear and balance everyone's feelings? And then when he tried to talk it out...got basically told he was trying to paint himself as the victim... Again, he knows Coyote is just rough around the edges and didn't have ill intentions and was just blowing off steam so he's let it go and doesn't hold it against her. Just wow, it kinda hurt even if it was just yelling but then he goes and gets mad at himself for being sensitive about it /laughs in volleyball.
It just kind of makes him question how he comes across to the newbies and what they think of him. One of the things that bugs Silver most in any relationship is not knowing where he stands. He feels awkward because he definitely feels the newbies are closer with each other than him. Which he knows isn't true and probably is just stemming from his own insecurities about not having friends back home. Silver has great self esteem....when it comes to volleyball and his looks and being able to be generically likable. When it comes to relationships deeper than surface level though...it's not like he has a lot of experience with that. And being a perfectionist, it makes him frustrated and beat himself up a little. He just winds up feeling like he's too big for his skin.
Add to that he's still not used to having a team this big... Having Haruto and Aries gone is very hard on him because they've been with him since day one. He can't be as clingy with Whisky as he could with them, so its just very...he's lacking an important touchstone and support and he miiiight be spiraling a bit.
The petty parts of his heart are 1) disappointed in the community for basically proving there is no improving their reputation 2) hurt by haruto and aries for being gone this long (yes he knows it wasnt by choice, but we're talking small petty thoughts not logic silver) 3) wishes his team tried harder/was better at social games rather than just murder and death games (again he knows just like death games are hard for him, social games are hard for them and that the harder games are actually the things they know) 4) lowkey does feel he should get to protect gold every game because it IS his actual real life family and not some friend he's maybe had for a year or a boyfriend he's had for a couple months (knows its important to be considerate of the rest of the teams feeling and the fact that these are their important people regardless of length of relationship) 5) feels like the newbies lowkey feel he's trying to boss them around or bully his way or hide things from them or whatever...basically he's not sure how much they trust him. Again, these are just petty!Silver or insecure!Silver thoughts, not normal, logic Silver. Just...invasive thoughts that float across his mind sometimes.
What are the things B likes least and most about each of his friends?
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Date: 2019-05-21 12:23 am (UTC)C Bad: but also C setting himself up to be The Bad Guy can be upsetting and worrying. B is genuinely afraid C will get hurt one day. And he dislikes even small things like people coming to his defense vs Plover but not C. Not believing him when he points out the ways C is better. All because C has to go hard sometimes and make himself a target for others. It's stressful!! And upsetting!!
Also bad is how hard it can be to pry stuff out of C. It can be effort when he's already tired. And C won't always let him help. LET! B! HELP!
Gold Good: Soothing ♥ Gold is a soothing an calming presence and that's always been the best part about Gold. Gold brings down B's anxiety so well just by physically being there. Being held? Amazing. Gold's lowkey reactions? Thank you for not freaking out. He's very good at navigating the tinies' comfort levels and not overreacting. His steadiness when things are crazy is so helpful for B.
Gold Bad: but the boy is so sad. strongsad. And because he's so sad sometimes it's hard for B to want to be open about things because. He's just so dang sad! And there's nothing B can do to help with it which is frustrating. He just can't do the things Gold needs to feel better. Adding to that seems so bad?? And there's going to always be a part of B that misses the Old Gold after double amnesia reminded him of the way Gold use to be. It's no one's fault. But he misses how things use to be.
Silver Good: His patience. He's very patient and kind with B, never losing his cool no matter how much help B needs sometimes with either fussing or learning. B knows it's probably really frustrating but Silver never fails to be gentle and kind with him when B is earnestly trying his best to learn.
Silver Bad: B still kinda salty that the Wild City stuff....Is. Like neither of them can help it but B can't help but be salty that he can't go visit his own friend Because Reasons and he can't be petty about WC to Silver because Well Obviously. It's frustrating that he feels this One Thing is off the table because his opinions aren't kind. It's a dumb thing to be salt about and B is genuinely trying to get over it. But it's hard!!! it's hard.
Duality Good: A good earnest simple young man. It's nice that he's so easy to navigate because he's so. Honest.
Duality Bad: IM TRYING TO MAKE YOU MAD DUALITY WHY WONT YOU RISE TO THE BAIT DUALITY AUUUGGHH
How does Silver think games go for Avante? How does he imagine Gold is treated when he can't see.
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Date: 2019-05-21 12:48 am (UTC)For all WC's faults....they do at least sincerely care about each other. And try to protect each other physically and emotionally. He is aware sometimes those efforts are clumsy or make things worse, but at least the intentions are good. He knows (some of) WC treats the rest of imeeji worlds diffrently than they treat him/the rest of the team.
HOWEVER. If someone were to ask Silver....diplomatic "theyre probably trying their best" aside? He thinks Avante is probably a shit show during games. Cardigan leads and argues despite probably not even actually wanting to be leader. Nem is probably resentful and angry, either cold or combative. Gold is so trampled he just agrees without a blink to whatever will get his team to stop fighting/will cause the least amount of problems. Mike appearing as mr. well intentioned confused new guy. Etc etc etc. The two newbies seem fighty so that's probably just going to make things WORSE. The team has NO true mediator with actual diplomatic skills.
He knows Gold owns some of the blame in his own misery for not fighting for what he wants and letting his heart be trampled. He also knows though that as a natural....Gold doesn't have the practice to get over hurdles. He doesn't know how to change tactics and keep pushing through things that seem impossible. Silver is grateful sometimes that he wasn't born a natural because it taught him to how to claw his way through fro what he wants. He wanted to shape Wild City and he made the change he wanted to see despite how impossible it seemed. Gold can't do that. Gold is a natural and if it doesn't happen for him, then clearly its impossible. It is or isn't.
That doesn't change the fact that it kills him to think of Gold sitting there agreeing to let everything he cares about be trampled for the sake of trying to keep peace with people he thinks of as coworkers only to have even that denied. He's so angry he could scream just thinking about no one seeing Gold's passive answers for what they are. Silver feels all the anger and resentment Gold won't let himself feel and it is MADDENING. His heart aches thinking of Gold just quietly agreeing to have his spirit broken anymore and it kind of kills him but he knows he can't approach the topic of avante without making Gold defensive. He knows Gold is sensitve to any mentions of WC so he tries not to mention his team either. It's just...hard....being forced to put the safety of your most important person in the hands of other people who don't care even half as much as you do about him.
Talk to me about B and body language and any weird habits or quirks!
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Date: 2019-05-21 01:20 am (UTC)But the more relaxed he is, the more he winds down from all that movement. In private B lacks a lot of manic energy he has in public where he's being all bubbles. it's not that the fidgety version of B is false, it's just he feels differently in large groups than his smaller, more personal ones. In the privacy of his closest people he's instead much more touchy than he is with others. He spends a lot of time On Gold and C. And while he usually avoids crawling all over Silver the way he does Gold and C, he does lean on him and hold onto his arm on occasion.
In a way the broad gestures etc in public is a barrier and in private he lets that down and instead anchors himself to people.
B fairly often is biting back impulses to ground himself in less pleasant ways. He's considered several times things like. Digging his fingernails into himself to anchor himself in more stressed moments but has managed to not go down that path yet. But he probably be seen occasionally reaching to do so before stopping himself.
what does Silver think it's like in Alcheme during a bad game? since i got his avante take
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Date: 2019-05-21 01:43 am (UTC)Does B ever think what things would be like if he has chosen Mori over Gold? Would B be different if he was dating Mori instead of Gold? Looks only, ignoring personality, what is B's type like? Who would be the most attractive person according to B? Also does B have any kinks other than kabedon?
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Date: 2019-05-21 02:10 am (UTC)If he were dating Mori he would be less touchy with both Gold and Silver. And probably miss out on some sleepovers. He would probably still be close friends with the twins though. And probably tbh overly willing to share Mori with C. But also suffering a little for that in that he'd think of C as the Better Match as the more interesting tiny.
LOOKS ONLY geez.
For girls, B likes boyish girls. Not into huge chests, he likes androgynous girls more than curvy girls. With guys it isn't like overly muscley guys but they do need to be fit. He probably finds Enstars Leo pretty hot with the cute red hair? But really it could change according to mood.
As for kinks oof. Kabedon and general like. Roughness? Being held down or tied up is A+++. Roleplay is extremely A+++++. Especially if costumes are involved. He'd probably freak out but also get turned on a lot by being watched if it was the right person watching. Sure ain't admitting that one!
Tell me about some of Silver's nightmares/fears!
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:17 am (UTC)Subconsciously...dream wise....a lot of the reoccuring themes in his nightmares involve not being able to move. Since he feels pretty useless/helpless and also that lingering fear from being strapped to the table and forcibly injected with god knows what... Eye trauma is a new one thanks to the spike game lololo.... Losing everyone, everyone deciding they don't like him, being abandoned....also grrrrreat nightmare material. But yeah, the most common nightmare theme is just straight up not being able to move.
What team would B have been on if not Alcheme? How do you think he would have been different?
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:29 am (UTC)I think he'd be infinitely more stressed and beaten down if he had been on one of the more Emotional teams that get riled up and heated during bad games. He needs to cling onto civility and stability during those times and people getting emotional would be nervewracking for him. He doesn't particularly deal with conflict that well unless he's instigating or able to maneuver some control somehow. He'd probably be in a pretty similar place to Gold or Hurricane where he'd be just. Why bother.
He'd also probably not had been able to level up his friendship with C so. That'd be the Big Difference. The likelyhood of them locking themselves into Bullshit Loops is way higher when they don't share a unit.
Is Silver mentally prepared for C's dangan bullshit backstory.
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:45 am (UTC)How would B like normal high school? Would he join any clubs? Or would he just stick with C and the twins until graduation? Would he be interested in getting to know and befriending the team or even the rival teams?
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Date: 2019-05-21 03:52 am (UTC)He would probably look to the twins for cues on who to befriend/talk to. Wary of stepping on their feet etc since in a weird way he'd be a Guest. But just a guest for like. Forever....
how it gonna feel when/if Silver finds out the circumstances of C's death? cuz boy aint that a convoluted mess involving two other members of imeeji
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:14 am (UTC)Would be feel less like a guest once they got out of highschool at least? And got into a twins and tinies apartment? Also how is B feeling about C convuluted death mess?
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:29 am (UTC)There's no details on C dying yet or confirmation but BOY DOES B SUSPECT IT. AND HE IS UNHAPPY. He knows it's stressing C out and most importantly: C didn't even want to know this. Maki forced this on him by publicly taking memories and dragging him into this. And then X bothered him about stuff DURING A TRAUMA GAME. The entire thing is coming for C without him having any say in it. And once it comes up it's like...okay and? So what? He can't control the past, he can't change the past, knowing about the past....does not actually Help C in any way since C has no intention of returning even if alive.
To B it all seems like C is just a victim of other peoples' bullshit. Maki lacks consideration and that is annoying for B. Like the stuff where she lets C provoke her and get under her skin is hugely annoying for B too and he worries she's going to haul off and do a violence. But even beyond that just. The disregard for how her memories effect C and others annoys B. Especially since they all know that the murder game involves HORRIFIC MURDERS. B has seen one murder via maki and another via C THEY BOTH SUCK. Please have consideration and maybe don't REPLAY YOUR MURDER SHIT where people can see!!111
So B is just. Deeply frustrated because it feels like a lot of people not giving a shit about C and making C more and more moody and unhappy and stressed. When it didn't have to be that way and Who Cares About Memories ANYWAY.
In a heart game, would Silver destroy something in the name of Helping?
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Date: 2019-05-21 04:49 am (UTC)How is B gonna be after Rise graduates?
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Date: 2019-05-21 09:30 pm (UTC)It's still a lot and depressing and B will be in knots because it means he'll have to figure out how to rescue her because of course he'll have to rescue her??? But how can someone as small and weak as him DO that??? It's a lot of pressure and stress. He's going to be not great. And in a way even though she means well it will feel like a betrayal of sorts since this means she can become a host now and. That's hard to face too.
He's going to feel very powerless and very alone and very confused and his ability to trust will probably become a little shaky.
how is SILVER going to feel about Rise choosing to become a host etc and B's ensuing emotional crash.
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Date: 2019-05-21 09:46 pm (UTC)What has been B's favorite piece of fanmail? Least favorite? How does he feel about being watched in general?
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Date: 2019-05-21 10:03 pm (UTC)Least fav are def the rude letters accusing him of things he already thinks about himself and the graphic doujinshi where he or others are harmed. But he hangs onto those usually and looks at them when his mood is low, like picking at a scab. So the ones that dig at him about Mori, the doujin where Gold just murders him. He hates them but. He keeps. Looking.
He haatteeesss being watched and it makes him feel like he should Always Be On. He forces himself to come down off of Stage Self a lot more than he's actually comfortable with doing just cuz he knows if he's On all the time he will lose his fucking mind. It's hard trying to always be cute~ and nice~.
How is Silver feeling about pretty princess crush corner?
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Date: 2019-05-21 11:27 pm (UTC)Silver is....doubtful. Of anyone who claims to have a crush on him. He knows he has a lot of faults and flaws and generally other people don't get to see those. So the second someone says they have a crush on him its just like....oh. You have a crush on the idea of me/my face/my body. And to be fair, C was right, since day one Silver has used being nice to look at and being generically likable to hopefully encourage people into liking him just enought to think twice about bussing Wild City.
Twins are used to being confessed to back home...hell they have a lot of fans (half of which are just there because theyre cute rather than for love of volleyball)...and also being considered interchangeable. So for Silver to be comfortable with a crush, he has to believe that person actually sees him. Twins are weird and possessive and not really good at sharing and don't really understand poly. Silver sees most of the drama circling around a lot of the relationships here and he doesn't really want any of that. So aside from doubting most people to manage to be chill in a relationship, he also doubts most people's ability to manage to be faithful and not smooch around with other people. Even if he was to just do a fwb thing he still...doesn't really want....someone to go around smooching a bunch of other people too? Feels weird and bad. In a fwb thing if someone wanted to smooch someone else, that's cool, just like tell him so they can break things off first and keep things drama free. Not big enough on smooching to want to deal with drama for it. How do other people not manage to do a smooch and stay chill? idk man.
Talk to me about B and food. What foods does he love, what does he hate, can he cook, does he graze or do full meals, etc.
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Date: 2019-05-21 11:50 pm (UTC)Well. B usually enjoys food of many varieties. He tends towards sweets less out of an actual appreciation for them and more just to appear more cutesy~. Not that he dislikes sweets, but its very a LOOK HOW CUTE I AM thing to appear to prefer them. He enjoys homey staples and such the most probably.
That said he's very much as of late lost his appetite and appreciation of food. While before he'd go to the cafe just because He Wants To now he mostly just makes himself eat his rations. He'll nibble on whatever he's given by friends but he now rarely finishes what he's eating. B knows it's not. Great. But the enjoyment has been sucked out. He's slowly starting to get his appetite back but it's a process.
B can cook!
B hates cooking. He much rather others cook for him and take it as a symbol of their doting on him. He feels bad that he never returns the favor but he just kind of dislikes cooking. It's not very fun, a lot of effort, and he's not especially good at it. Not that he's bad either. Just. He don't. Wanna. He already does a lot! So someone else! Do this!!!
B is very much a grazer who tends towards maybe one actual meal a day aside from recently where he is very dutifully making himself eat his rations in one sitting every day so he won't forget.
How much does Silver see himself and Gold in the tinies? You've mentioned before he notices similarities between the ways they act and the twins sometimes.
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Date: 2019-05-23 06:48 am (UTC)The tinies work with the twins because they're also 'good' without being overly 'nice'. The tinies aren't saints and neither are the twins; they have petty thoughts and get tired of peoples bullshit and just want everyone to stop their nonsense for like two seconds. The tinies are realists, like the twins, and despite being from murder school and magical boy land, are also down to earth.
Both the twins and the tinies are hyper aware of appearances and how people view things and how that can be manipulated etc etc.
Silver and B definitely have the most similarities in terms of coping and needing to be busy and experiencing a lot of 'second best' feelings. C keeps busy too, of course, and Gold is kind of the odd one out in that, but a lot of that probably relates to his unit issues and strong sad. wheeze.
As far as twins and tinies go, Gold and B definitely are prone towards depression versus Silver and C being prone to manic energy etcetc. Twins and tinies are all generally smarter than they let on and come to a lot of the smae conclusions.
Main thing being the energy/vibe though; pr faces aside. They're not the extreme of 'nice' to the point of being genuinely bubbly and outgoing and sunshine/rainbows...and they're not so 'good' to the point of self righterous and overbearing. They're all tired and realistic and can forgive but never forget, but they're all still good boys.
Would B ever start working for one of the producers? If so, what would he take? Would he ever take up host life? Also separate, but is he going to take part in the anon post when it goes up? Would B have fun playing truth or dare with the twins and C? What dares or truths would he ask of them?
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Date: 2019-05-28 03:15 am (UTC)Anon post hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm not likely unless he sees something interesting or if he wants to be obnoxious. B doesn't really see the point in laying his real~ emotions~ bare in public. Maybe he'd shit stir a little? Really depends on how others are using it. But B isn't super interested in publicly talking shit about people under the cover of anon. Unless it's like. So funny.
TRUTH OR DARE hn. I think if its Just With Them he could enjoy it. If it's them he doesn't mind near so much letting himself be seen in an honest way. And in return he could get their truths as well? And he trusts their dares wouldn't be unbearable even if they could be aggravating.
HOW MUCH BETTER IS SILVER NOW THAT HARUTO AND ARIES HAVE RETURNED